Friday, November 5, 2010

And Time Keeps Ticking By

It's been a while and I am not really sure if anyone reads my blog but it is pretty therapeautic for me. I can't believe it is November already. Where did the time go? We have had some milestones though. Mike and I received a referral and we prayed and prayed and came to the decision that it was not the one for us. First of all it was totally unexpected--didn't think it would happen that fast. Second off, we would have had to come up with $15,000 immediately. Third of all we didn't get a peace about it. She was a sweet little girl and I pray that she finds her perfect family soon. Since she is already cleared for adoption I am sure a wonderful family will get this precious child. There was a tremendous amount of guilt that came with not accepting this referral though. Once we made our decision a weight seemed to be lifted and I know that God is not of confusion so I am sure we made the right decision. But now that we have gotten a taste our patience has not been good. Every Friday afternoon I feel disappointed because it means we have to wait the weekend for another chance to hear about a referral.

Our second big milestone was getting fingerprinted. It was so awesome and I don't think I would have ever been excited to be fingerprinted ( in my college days I expected it. lol) but it represented something getting checked off the adoption list. Wouldn't you know that I knew someone in the immigration office. I am getting just like my dad. He knows everyone and can go to San Diego and run into someone he knows. I am just a chip off the old block. It was a couple I went to high school with that are adopting their second Ethiopian baby. How exciting!!!

Another milestone has nothing to do with adoption but does have to do with our two homegrown boys---Halloween. We did 3 fall festivals/trunk or treat. Needless to say I have been eating lots of minature chocolate bars that are attaching to my thighs. I hate it being in this house because I can't say NO!!!. Mike and I stick our kids with smarties and skittles while we steal the chocolate. Aren't we awful?? Hayden was a homemade Harry Potter and Noah was a clown. We are Halloweened out though.


On a last note, I have been really sad and thinking of my sweet Jaron lately. It is six months tomorrow that he departed this earth and joined Jesus. I am being selfish and wishing I could get one last update about him. I have been praying hard that God shows me how I can honor Jaron--maybe a nonprofit or grant. He was such a great boy and I really can't wait to wrap my arms around him. I broke down in front of one of my dear friends today and I am sure she thinks I am a lunatic even though she is as sweet as pie. I love those friends that love you know matter how looney you are. She has been a true blessing in my life. Right now I have also been praying for Sarah's Covenant Homes. This biggest cyclone in 30 yrs is supposed to hit and her main volunteers are out of the country. I am praying.  I am glad Jaron endured his last cyclone in April and doesn't have to endure this one.

Until Next Time


Lori

6 comments:

  1. yes, people read. I do anyway. Sending hugs your way.
    Kim Porter

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  2. I added you to my google reader, friend! And since I know you, I can hear your voice as I read.

    xo,

    Beth

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  3. I just sent you an e-mail, and remembered to come check here.

    I completely, completely understand the agony involved in refusing a referral. We went through that twice. One of them put me in a grieving state... it was so very, very hard to walk away from that file. Yet, that "heart journey" was important to us making our path to Dorothy.

    I trust God has given you the "heart journey" with Jaron for His own purposes, too. Your story- which is really HIS story- will be fantastic and amazing! I can't wait to see how it unfolds!

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  4. We are pretty close to the same step you are! I just posted our schedule. We had a referral before Sunita, which we accepted but then didn't work out. The Lord knows and prepares a way, even on the days it doesn't feel like it.

    I'm with Tisra about Jaron. Your love was a reflection of our Father's and in no way can that be cheapened.

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  5. Wondering if you've heard anything new. YOu haven't had an update in a while....

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  6. I did post an update on the blog about the pantry recipes I use if you haven't seen it. We completed the challenge and will be posting about the money spent and saved soon (hopefully). Hope your journey if moving. I'll be posting about that soon as well.

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